You know what bugs me? When people try to be something they aren’t. I will refer to them as posers in all future references in this post.
First let me say that I am just as guilty of this as the next person. I went to Jr. High School. I wanted to be a cool kid with the right look. I wanted acceptance. So I tried to be what I thought was the accepted personality. I failed miserably. I was the kid that tried on all of the cliques to see what fit. None of them did and I found myself in between all of the time.
I do not like Jr. High me. I was a poser. Instead of trying to figure out who I was, I let different groups of people decide for me. I gave them the power to build me up or tear me down. I have no idea why I or anyone would want to do that. It just sounds silly when I look at it that way.
Fast forward several years. I got tired of finding my identity in others, so I went on my own for a while. But later I made a connection that my identity is found in Jesus. The clouds parted and a ray of sunshine beamed upon my acne infected face. It all made sense. But only for a while. So I started to really invest in relationships with other Christians. After a while though I learned that people didn’t stop being posers when they turned 18. And now I was faced with Christian posers. Ok, so I know that Jesus is all about grace and mercy, but people who say they love Jesus and then go act completely different really piss me off. I am not saying that I am a perfect Christ follower. I piss myself off when I see my own hypocrisy. After I punch myself in the face a few times, I feel a little better but sore.
It just really bugs me. I try very hard to be as real as I can be with people. I don’t always share the gory details of my sinful self with everyone that I meet, but I won’t try to build myself up to be perfect. I still feel the urge to try to fit in. I see what other Christians are doing or studying and I find myself jumping on board. This is all fine and well as long as I don’t forget to be who God made me to be. I have found lately that I am once again, trying to be something that I am not. And fixing it is as simple as remembering to be myself. If you aren’t sure what that is, then you need to ask God about that.
Jesus wants an authentic relationship with us. And he wants us to have authentic relationships with each other. So let’s stop being posers, and get real.
When is the last time you felt like you were being a poser? For me it was just last week.