I am preparing to lead our small group this Friday and I want to use Joe’s talk from this past weekend at church as a springboard to talk more about what it means to trust God. I am also curious to see if my friends in small group have figured out how to get to this blog from our small group blog.
I admit that I struggle with trusting God in some areas of my life. There is a big part of me that likes to have control over things or at least be prepared for what life brings me. I don’t believe that trusting God means that I don’t have to work at my job or try hard at anything because magically God will put food on the table and a roof over my head. I don’t think that God wants me to be ignorant. What would life be like if everything was handed to me? I think it would be pretty boring after a while. I tend to find myself at the other extreme where in my mind I feel that I am responsible for taking care of the finances, making my yard look spectacular, and working hard at my job so that I have finances to handle. I admit that sometimes I forget to let God help me when I struggle as if I can tackle this project or create something wonderful all on my own. It is rewarding when I feel like something is all me and I enjoy the glory moments when I do something good. But I also know that it’s not about me, it isn’t my money, I didn’t create my gifts, and my yard would die if it never rained. But I fall into the same pattern and God reminds me that the Glory is all His and I am lucky to serve Him.
How do I break out of that pattern and learn to trust God more than I do now? How do I give Him those areas and struggles in my life where I leave God out of the picture?
